Amazed

Basically, I'm a stinker. I'm generally a "nice guy" from the world's perspective, but I know my heart, and a lot of times it is really dark. I also know what I'm capable of, and I know I fall short many times. I disappoint a lot of people in many small ways all the time, and I really disappoint my God often.

That is why I'm amazed at God's grace. I know I miss out on what Jesus has for me often due to sin, but even despite that God blesses me. Not because I deserve it, but because He is a good God that wants to bless and not curse. God is about goodness, sometimes I get so guilt ridden and down that I forget that God views me differently then how I view myself. He views me through the vail of Jesus's blood on the cross, and sees me perfect, because He chooses to see me that way.

He uses awesome tools to bless me. A family that provided for my every need growing up, and then emotional and financial support when I was older above and beyond what parents should do. I have an awesome job that fell into my lap that I didn't deserver, where I learn a lot and get the privledge of hanging out with good men and women who are very intelligent and talented. I've had many good friends along the way. Though not as many as some, my friends are loyal and have stood by me even though many of their friendships I don't deserve. I wound up at a good God fearing church that preaches the full Word of God without getting all legalistic and has a very good balance between grace and responsibility. And lastly, I have a beautiful wife that compliments me perfectly, and who loves me despite my numerous flaws.

So to all of you, and most of all you Jesus, I thank you. I know I'm ungrateful most of the time, but your recent rounds of undeserved blessings to me have not gone unnoticed.